BIG FAT SIGHHHHH.

hahaah guess what ! im backk. it's 0125 am now btw, just a thought that has been bothering me. idk what should i do actually. should i actually end it or just see how far it could get me. but there's these mix feelings for * . oh god. im so confused at the moment. i dont wanna hurt him. but i dun wanna go on like this forever either. there's a secret within that i cant tell . and it's so difficult. is it a phrase or something else ? all i wanted is a decent relation, nothing more !